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Thursday, July 10th, 2003
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someone posted anonymously in my non-ed lj 5ara...so i have to make these entries friends-only from now on....add me and i'll add you back because i really need the support i get from these communities...thanks so much everyone!!!
p.s. i do have a lot to write about from the last time i made an entry but i can't right now (my sister's here)...i'll try to later tonight :)
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| Time: | 12:22 am. |
| Mood: |  indifferent. |
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i had some grapes today and it started a whole binge....i felt really bad so i threw all of it up and took 6 ephedrine pills...i feel fine now...i went to a party and resisted drinking :) that saved me so many calories....i feel pretty good about myself today
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i ate a pb&j sandwich and some ice cream..normally i would go and throw up to calm down but i'm at allison's house and i don't think her parents would appreciate that very much....i took a bunch of ephedrine...maybe it will make me sick...well since i slipped up so bad..no food for two days at all....
in other news: i like to kiss my boyfriend.
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Wednesday, July 2nd, 2003
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yesterday i was with my friend allison and it was dinner time...i didn't want to look weird so i just picked out the little pieces of chicken from the pasta and ate those (no carbs for sara)...then me and allison rode bikes to the skate park and my boyfriend :) was there...so we stayed a little while and then rode back to her house...i took about 6 325mg ephedrine tablets...it was nice...my kidneys hurt really bad though...is that from the ephedrine???...
anyways..so far today i woke up, got a ride here to allison's house, we rode bikes to dave's house (dave's my boyfriend), went swimming, wrestled with the boys...and then we rode bikes back...allison just ate dinner but i passed on that...so we're getting dressed to go back to dave's (on the bikes again) and then going to see fireworks tonight!!!..checked the scale...2 lbs. less than yesterday but i'm gonna weigh myself again later just to be sure :)
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| Time: | 3:18 am. |
| Mood: | confident. |
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i have only been eating once every other day...and taking straight up ephedrine a lot...i weigh 115 now...i want to be 100...that would make me happy...i was so close before and it didn't take that long...now that i have work and no car...i should be getting more exercise and having less time to sit around and eat....with the help of my ephedrine i will be golden :)....
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